Well I did it. I don't know how I did it because I have pretty much fallen off the wagon. Perhaps not fallen, but I feel like I'm being dragged behind it! My half assed attempts are producing a half assed result. Which is okay... I know I can lose the last 40. It's a matter of getting back into the habit and routine of when I started back in February. It's been more difficult that I imagined during the summer months, what with babysitting and having sometimes 10 kids at one time running over, under and through my house. School starts in less than 3 weeks and it'll be back to my normal routine.
Sounds odd that the summer would be my downfall. The weathers perfect, no excuses to not get out there and walk at least right? The fun of living in New England is you never know if you need sunblock or an umbrella. Sure, that is pretty much just an excuse. Lazy is all I can tell ya. But I've made it this far... 50lbs... what's 40 more? Part of my problem is I've still been eating the 1,600 calories and didn't adjust for losing a pound and a half a week at my new weight so I'm just maintaining. When I finally came to that epiphany it was like DUH.
Stress has been in full swing, but then when isn't it? Seems like one by one everyone is just falling away. I'm partly to blame and I know that. Brad and I get so lost in day to day everything else the only time we have for one another is in the 20 minutes before we fall asleep. My motto for the rest of my life is going to be "take charge". It's what I have to keep telling and reminding myself so I can get every aspect of my life back on track. My marriage, my friendships, and my weightloss. I've hit this wall lately that is just screaming huge lessons to me and I don't know where it's coming from but damn. It's pretty profound.
So there is another little update. Hopefully in less than three weeks I'll have myself again and time on my hands to exercise, blog and get my friendships back on track.
Sounds odd that the summer would be my downfall. The weathers perfect, no excuses to not get out there and walk at least right? The fun of living in New England is you never know if you need sunblock or an umbrella. Sure, that is pretty much just an excuse. Lazy is all I can tell ya. But I've made it this far... 50lbs... what's 40 more? Part of my problem is I've still been eating the 1,600 calories and didn't adjust for losing a pound and a half a week at my new weight so I'm just maintaining. When I finally came to that epiphany it was like DUH.
Stress has been in full swing, but then when isn't it? Seems like one by one everyone is just falling away. I'm partly to blame and I know that. Brad and I get so lost in day to day everything else the only time we have for one another is in the 20 minutes before we fall asleep. My motto for the rest of my life is going to be "take charge". It's what I have to keep telling and reminding myself so I can get every aspect of my life back on track. My marriage, my friendships, and my weightloss. I've hit this wall lately that is just screaming huge lessons to me and I don't know where it's coming from but damn. It's pretty profound.
So there is another little update. Hopefully in less than three weeks I'll have myself again and time on my hands to exercise, blog and get my friendships back on track.
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