Beginning Again

I think I'm ready to begin again. I haven't been in the right mind set for months. I haven't wanted to do the work. I've made excuse after excuse, and it's gotta stop. The moment I began to waiver from the path, it became a slippery slope into the rut I've been in for my whole life.

I certainly didn't do myself any favors. It seems it is harder the second time around. I'm hungrier for one, and lazier for two. My excuse and procrastination abilities are in top form however, and one of my biggest challenges. I need to remind myself that had I stayed on track all along, I'd be at my goal already, or 10 pounds shy of it. I've got 40 pounds I have to lose. Then after that maybe another 10-20.

I've downloaded a bunch more weight loss applications to my iPod arsenal. I've bought another Wii game called My Fitness Trainer, which has me up and running again. I have to remind myself that eating will pack on the pounds, and pack them on much quicker this time around. At one point I managed to eat my way back up to 210, and I can't let that happen. Back to a strict calorie count and at least 15 minutes of exercise 3 days a week. Baby steps again. I hate set backs, and if I should start this slacking shit again, I need to remember how sucky this is. It will be a real test come Thanksgiving dinner. I can do it though... my "prize" for the first 50 pounds is set to be fufilled on Sunday when I get my tattoo.

I designed it myself. It's one big star with 4 littler stars. They are to represent myself and my kids. But coincidentally? It's also the amount of pounds I lost. So I could say each little one was 10lbs mini goals leading up to the one big goal of 50. Whatever works right?

I bought a winter coat at Old Navy last weekend... and XL in the regular section! It's a tad snug, but it's not uncomfortable. So, more motivation to stick with it or else that coat is going to be collecting dust somewhere, which, wouldn't be good because it's white.

I also need to blog more. But that's another challenge on it's own =}