When you have a blog, you put your life out there for all to see. When things are good you let it all flow out in the open. When things aren't so good, you hide so that you don't have to be held accountable. I think this is why I have been reluctant or uninspired to write/update.
I've fallen into old habits that I'm not proud of. I've let my stress control me and be an excuse to not exercise, or not eat smart enough. I'm pretty ashamed to think how disciplined I was a year ago. Measuring, weighing, porportioning everything to a T. While I haven't gained more than a few pounds, I don't have that pride in myself I used to have. I had dropped such a substantial amount of weight, I got comfortable with myself. Now I see a fat girl looking back at me in the mirror. I'm not happy with my body. I have the ability to make more changes happen. No one else can do it for me. The magic skinny fairy doesn't exist, and the money tree doesn't either so lipo is out.
All I can do is put my heart back into progress. All I can do is be accountable for my actions (ie putting the food in my mouth or hopping on the treadmill for 20.. I say 20 because I do a mile in less than).
Tomorrow the sun will rise and so will I. Starting off with raking and picking up our yard from the winter debris.
Just shut up and do it already!
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